So do my life. As i wrote in the past post, women are the expert to be called, pretender. So do i. But when the discussion is touching on feeling, heart and personal life, I am not as good as pretender.

Bill, yes i admit it. Sometime we were wrong on the guy that we fall because we really love him/her and that the role of parents to be in when something goes wrong! It is their part. zno one denied it because they are our parent. In the other hand, too much demanding and raise up an old issues that are almost forgotten by others is only made certain of sensitives women taking for granted on it.

I always asking myself. Am i an obidient daughter? If so, why can’t they give me some space so that i can breath freely to feel the fresh air. To love someone and to be love by someone is like this world is belong to me. Same thing with family. Where do they go when i am in financial problems? Do they care? Do they asked me, have taken your lunch or dinner already? No..i have a lovely mum but she cannot do anything because my father is the boss. So, what can i do? The only person who is really understand and care of me is the man i love whom he is also my ex-fiancee!

Bill, now what i am trying to share with you in related to this post is that, are we going to dumbed someone we love, someone who really care of you just because you’re being called, ungrateful daugther!by your father? Are we should listen to him or our love once? Of cause i have to defend him. Our enagagement is break-off not because that we’re different races, different cultures and also different country except we our religion (R.C Christian).

His mum and father (British family) from UK has never interfearance our relationship from the beginning we date except when we plan our engagement. But his mum can’t stand to see how pressure and stressful i am everyday just because of my father! And then, we both agree to break-off..in sadness and tears. That is 3 yrs ago.

Being control by my father the whole of my life has made me getting fed-up…busy body with my business..when a big blast from me! no one in my family, relatives, cousin, aunties and uncles even friends is believed i am the one who started the fight in verbal on last June. Everyone stare on me.

My father was shock, and everybody stand-up, and go inside my house when i throw a plastic plate infront of my father!! I know i am rude but that is the burden i carry on all this while, and the burden is being realease at that night!! After that, i took my cloths, and drive away to my cousin house staying a few day to release my tension, while my father was being calms by my cousin and uncle. My mum & my sister try to stop me away from home, but i can’t because my heart has always being hurts by a man i called, father.

I do apolojize to him. Everything is ok and he said, the past is past…since last June until today (this year), my father has change and he nere instructed me or directed me in what he want. Even when we were talking about relationship, he never saying bad on western guys instead of he advised me, doesn’t matter who is your future husband except that religion.. you can marry him or staying in which country.

Oh, thanks Gods! If my father mindset has change 3 year ago,i guest i may not know this site, meeting you Bill, and Christine and the others? There is always a good thing will happen behind the sad story huh!! I will miss all these knowledgable posts that we women cannot be found anywhere except originally through men hand writing. Taking example on me who is less experience in dating, relationship and any kind of matters between men and women, where do i get it? If there is other web provided such post like Bill have, i dont think they can manage how bill do and treating all women who come across this site like his friends and the credit goes to Bill..Lol!